Tuesday, September 19, 2006, 8:39 AM
just came back home.i bough only two books and a stupid assesment book.haha.had my late lunch wif parents at swensens.yes,my family is all right now.noone's leaving.so yeah,i felt really relieved.(:ive given up hope on you.aused you still cant get it into your thick skull.ugh,forget i said that.you haf many many many friends outside,and im just someone you knew.so yeah whatever.im trying my best not to think about how bad i misses zul.and trying to forget him like how i forget haireel.and yes,ive moved on from haireel cause i get to know zul.but now,who will make me forget zul?well,i know verry well he wont be calling me anymore.so yeah,whats the use of waiting when you know the truth.as for now i need to think aout myself.i have to be selfish at times.i had enough of caring for friends and people around,when they dunt even noticed you cared.ive been thinking about how bad am i as a friend.and taking all the blames.but i know very well,i am not appreciated.so yeah from now on,dont expect me to bother anymore.im much more comfortable telling my problems wif strangers.cause i wont know whats my limit to tell them about my problems.cause friends get bored when listen to your problems.ughh,enough of that.i still have my lovely parents who i cant depend on.and yes im super happy my family is all right now.and yes,dad is not living,which he says he will.and everyone still thought i have a perfect family,but i dont.heh,too much info,ok daaa.(:
