you and i.

Tuesday, August 28, 2007, 9:13 AM

OK BEST! NOW THAT I HAVE PHOTOSHOP,I CAN EDIT BEAUTIFUL PICTURES. haha,and yes,its addictive(: yahooo(: ok bye! and i love my blog.(: you dont? your problem lar seys. lol

, 3:28 AM

i slept arnd 2 in the morning,and my eyes were tired because of crying. i watched Cinta Pertama, an Indonesian telemovie. and i swear every second of the movie i cried. The starting was already making me sad. And theres no one part I laughed or smiled. That resulting in me having swollen eyes. Luckily, im not going out today,so,noone have to see those ugly eyes of mine. (:

anyways, am still unsure whether to rebond my hair and highlight it with bright colours or trim my hair, curl it more and dye the whole hair. grrrrr!

CURLY HAIR?

STRAIGHT?

Monday, August 27, 2007, 1:50 PM

i just got home from my once in a blue moon retail theraphy with my dearest family.(: i tell you, i was feeling all excited to go out and smell the fresh air after being sick for few days. and im a super duper happy girl today!(:

my parents spend alot on the family today. well,mostly on me and my bro. haha. mom bought for herself a new handphone, K810i. and i couldnt be bothered just that the camera of that phone is super power lar babe! haha. then, we proceed to Courts to get my portable hardisk. I bought for myself a 160 GB which costs $179. haha,power ape? now i can store many2 things lar babeyh!(:then we have our dinner at BaliThai. And the waiter there, hot sial!!! haha. and he kept smiling,and i also melt sia. hahaha. after that proceed to Adidas shop to buy for my bro his boots for his rugby training. and the boot was deliciously red and was beautiful sia. ut it cost a bomb! haha, $325plus for boots! hahaha. and then, what made me real happy was Mom brought me to Soo Kee to purchase a bracelet for me,caused i really wanted a bracelet. And it cost $600++ initially,but after discount, it cost only $551. best aper? hahaha. and i so love my parents. they were being so generous and kind today!(: we dont do these very often,only once in a blue moon. but still,i so love my parents,despite everything(:

Sunday, August 26, 2007, 1:27 PM

shit! im having super high fever at four in the mornning.

and i forget to msg ili that i cant go to school.

im super sorrygirlfriend.

i was sick and sleepy and the fever was almost driving me crazy.

ergh.

well,lets just hope the temperature will not rise like last night.(:

Saturday, August 25, 2007, 1:58 PM

OKAY! IM DAMN TIRED.ive jst had my shower and now having my full rest.(:

Okays, so yesterday night was hell of a fun,and also a day where things goes all wrong. and i wonder why do these things really happened when we're subconcious. idiot tols. ok,let me just give a short summary on how fun my night with mai was FUN FUN AND FUN!(:

we went there, go into Cheeky's. got chopped lar bebey! haha,and we're not even legal lar sey. then we got our free flow of drinks. and i swear that place was so boring. so after few drinks,we went to dbl o,thinking that we can get in thru thr front door. but the woman infornt,very strict. haha. and mind you, its only for 18 and above.(: so,we meet up with Umar and Is. and their friends. i didnt know any of them excpet for Umar. And Is was my primary sch friend. haha. we didnt talked until Mai tell him that we were in the same primary school. haha. then after that,we talked hahaha. but we got in thanks to Is. (: and yes,it was full and packed. but i had fun with Mai. we danced like theres no tmr. and the shots there was too strong. (: and after all the dancing and shaking,we went to Macdonalds at Tamp Mart. however, i hate everything happened there. we shdlnt have go there seys. And Mai's hp got stolen by god dont know whose asre wants to be fcuk upside down. mind you,there were so many guys over there. and with only the two of us,with only subconcious mind. what do you expect me to do? enuf of that. after that,went to meet Umar, Is and their friends at Umar's place over there. then when the sun shine, we went to Umar's house and sleep there. I was so tired,but i couldnt sleep. haha.

ok enough. im tired. i just got home after going to Safra and hang out with Ira and Mai for a while. i didnt want to follow,but they love me too much not to let me go. HAHAHAHA.(: ira,Safra tempat kenangan ehy?(: ok, i shouldnt disturb Ira here,caused its open here, and people can read. HAHAHAHA. ok,i love all my girls. and waty is now away in camp. sara donna studying for N levels. ok,we should meet up real soon and should talk kunek like what we usually do(:

Friday, August 24, 2007, 1:48 PM

LOOK AT WHAT I FOUND. LOL.(: ok,correction lar,look at what waty found(:

mind the ugly faces caused we were so tired already. and the tag! HAHAHA. BUAT MALU AJER OI! LMAO.

ANYWAYS,

i wont be updating for today. haha. the day has come! weeee! i cant wait for today, and im scared at the same time.wel,lets jsut hope everything goes well,and we wont be doing something stupid. Im going to meet Ame and Tricia later at 1. and aft tht go to tamp with them. ok best! bye!(:

Wednesday, August 22, 2007, 1:42 PM

im going to have fun with only maisara this thursday. but im half hearted to go. im not an independent person like Mai. what if she leave me in the middle of the night? MATI LAR AKU. (: and im only doing this for fun. its quite shocking for me to agree with it with only me and mai going. well,wtvr it is, i hope i have lotsa fun. its only once in a while.

anyways, at school now,rotting. hvng computing today. i swear i couldnt be bothered. sorry to my teammates.im dying of boredoom. and i couldnt bring myself to talk. and my eyes are hurting. ok, i cant wait for thursday. at the same time, im scared caused its only the two of us.(: next post, i update pictures. i have tons of pics to upload.

, 7:50 AM

if only i was pretty enough.

to make heads turn whenever i walk.

to be the centre of attraction and always gets the best.

to have a bf whom i know will stick to me and am afraid to let me go.

to at least look perfect.

and to feel how praises actually feel like.

IF ONLY LAR SEY.

im sick and tired of life,really.

the world is really unfair.

ive been crying for no reasons.

im not crying becuase of any guy.

i just realised how life can be cold and hard towards me when im growing up and trying to be an adult.

its true wtvr my parents had been saying.

ive always been pampered with money and ive been living a comfortable life since im young.

ive never been thru hardships,honestly.

however,i do rememeber my roots and not to boast around.

i have to applaud my parents,caused i believe they are the best.

eventho however, they suck my blood.(:

never fails to heed me with advices as i grow up.

and to make me happy whenever they can.

and always advise me on how to choose the right guy.

however, i believe im old enough to decide and to lead my own life.

and i thanks my parents to give me their guidance all these while.

well,it is their responsibilities.

and how nice can my parents be,to give me their car when i pass my license.

haha.

but i want a new car,however,i shld be thankful lar ehys.

and they let me get my own apartment.but with my own money.when im old enough.

and they're always been supporting me and point the wrong things.(:

thanks,and these tears that are falling are tears of joy.

and im the only daaughter of them.

(: and im proud to be one.

ok im done with the emo-ing! hahaha.

Sunday, August 19, 2007, 1:06 PM

so,here i am blogging in my grandma's house. i just got back from the hosp to visit my aunt. she got admitted caused she did operation on her nose. LOL. and for tonight, i'll be staying over here. only god knows how much i hate staying over other's hse. but nvm, you will rarely see me sleep in other's hse.

anyways, ive decided to let Haikal go. and i think im becoming heartless. well,wtf cares,anyway.(: just hope that no guy come into my life at this very moment. it's not that im not prepared and all, its just that, guys make me want to jump down from the hightest building in the world. grrr! i know, i know, some may say not all guys are like that. ok MAUBE, AND JUST MAYBE, some! even my dad was a bad guy last time. and only after he's married,he changed. before that,only god knows. LOL.(: ive to admit i was a bad gf 4 yrs ago. ok enuf.

im turing in soon.

so,nytes peple! dont miss me too much(:

Saturday, August 18, 2007, 4:05 PM

and im actually sheding real tears right now. and i dont fcuking now the reason why. maybe its haikal or maybe its just someone else. i guessed im too stress. and i havnt shed tears since like what, ages? weeks? months? ok,nampak sah bedek. oh god, just make him go far far away from me can? and make me stop falling for the wrong type of guys. ergh! and am still crying. grrrr.

, 3:53 PM

im tired, and i dont feel like blogging. haish,ive got tons of problems inside my head now. I guess I just have to please everyone and ME? people just dont blardy care.if you really think of why people hate you that much, well look at yourself first lar sey. grrrrrrr. ok enuf.

i just got bck home close to an hour ago. i was from esplanade. watched fireworks. was effing beautiful lar sey! (: if only i was there with a boyfriend. kan sweet gitu? ahaha, ive tons to update,but im lazy to. i find the time tmr lor(: well hopefully. and yar i like my class today.(: and im sure going to miss w35g(: and thanks miss su for the cake and mini celebration. i think its kinda sweet and touching(:

Thursday, August 16, 2007, 11:58 AM

i got pissed off with my Windows Vista just now. i mean,really pissed lahs. because my Windows Live Messenger couldnt sign in. mcm pigs larr gitu!. but however, i restart the comp, and thank God, everything can(:

BUT, im a happy girl today. I love communication module today! the class got only 4 groups. and today;s problem, not stress at all. and during our presentation, FACI praised us somemore. say ours' is oe of the best presentation she had seen so far! wahlao! bulu naik sebentar lar seys. LOL,ok diam. (: and once i reached home, the cardigan I purchased online reached alr liao. HAPPY LIKE THERE'S NO TOMORROW.(: i have always been wanting a cardigan lar sey. now i get alr. im super duper happy.(: and yes yes, im addicted to Photoshop. hahaa. i tell you, i edit pictures like noone's business. well it is noone's business. ok done! IM HAPPY TODAY. well except for just now.(: AND IM STILL HAVING A HUGE FIGHT WITH HAIKAL. and know what? i think im over haikal. i couldnt be bothered anymore. and neither can he. so, we're even CHEY CHEY! ok, all guys sucks! yeah! (: i want to become a lesbian. and i know ira can be my partner. shes a bi. hahaha. she like both girls and boys. HAHAHA.(:

Wednesday, August 15, 2007, 11:40 AM

Pictures for today post. im getting lazier to update.(: i miss my girls. and school has never been great. grrr. pictures are last week's outing. and i just got Photoshop cs2 from my cuteset classmate, Queenie!(: im still a dumb dumb at it. and im having a big and huge fight with haikal! LOL. gth lar seys. i cant be bothered anymore(: nytes! im gng to watch movie.

, 6:16 AM

Tag Reply;

shiera: thankieu ehyy nuyyule syggg!

Nuyul: You are welcome, ira sayang!(:

aisha: link me!

Nuyul: I will link ya soon,babe!(:

mas: u guys went out? missed it again.haish.....

Nurul: ya lor. it isnt always completewithout you around! just wait for another 5 more mths den we go out and have fun togther okays?(: and better tc of yourself inside.(:

miirah: hellos pretty [:

Nuyul: Hellu jambus!(: long time never hear from you.(:

Monday, August 13, 2007, 1:14 PM

my sunday was spent fruitfully with family. its been too long since we went shopping and have a family day out together. we went to suntec. i didnt bought anything caused shockingly, i wasnt in the mood to shop. so everyone was buying hundreds and branded stuffs. the amazing thing is that, i dont get jealous. and its weird, caused usually im the one who finish up my dad's money. LOL. well, i think im not in need of things,that's why.(: we had our diner at Secret Recipe. The food there was delicious lar sey.(: i was full, happy and contented. not for the dinner only. but spending time with my family. i enjoyed my day today.(: pictures will be up i the next post. im getting sleepy. tmr scholling. shits! i hate rp(:

Sunday, August 12, 2007, 4:23 PM

today was a sucky day. i hate today as much i hate looking at mai when she's drunk. it's not that i hate you drinking and all. but i hate your drinking attitude. mind you, you have been drinking these few days. and i dont want you to be a regular drinker. its not nice my dear girl. (: we loved you,thats why we hate it the way you act when you're drunk. it's goddamn irritating. we girls promised that we d this once in a blue blue moon. we only do this for fun. not everyday fun. whoever likes it even to be a drinker. just stop your drinking habit. and change before its all too late. and stop falling with the wrong guys. there you were drunked, and the guy you liked can only look and laughed. erm,WTH?! and be thankful,we're there.(: we're your friends. we should take care of each other. we know our limitations. and we change together when the right time comes.(:

Saturday, August 11, 2007, 12:32 PM

PICTURES FOR YTD.(: IM STILL HAPPY BECAUSE OF YTD. I SO HAD SUPA DUPER FUN.(: WE TOOK ALOT OF PICTURES, AND I HAVE TO COLLAGE IT.(: EXCUSE THE UGLINESS AND NONSENSICAL POSE,CAUSE ITS JUST US.(: AND I LOVE QUORFAINE ADDICT STILL(:

THE ONLY ONES WHO WILL BE THERE THRU MY UPS AND DOWNS. ONLY ONES.(:
THE BEAUTIFUL FIREWORKS.(:

, 12:44 AM

ytd national day was spent frutifully with the girls. ok,exclude all the many many kiasu people of singaporeans who just go there to see the fireworks. haha, aku cakap g,padahal aku pergi,tapi aku tak nak, bdk2 yang nak. haha. i dont wished to elaborate the details about how we got to see the fireworks. except that thse mofos banglas who shoved my breasts and those wannabes who's dressing up disgust me. ok enough. singaporeans are so kiasu. they shouldnt make it a public holiday during this day. LOL.(:

anyways, after those firework, which ira claimed to be romantic, just because she was there watching it with her bf. LOL. we went to boat quay. to sahara. went to have a few drinks, AT FIRST. ut we end up buying more than we expected. LOL. this is all ira's fault. and we danced in there like none's business. LOL. i told them i didnt get high, and they asked more drink,mcm pantats. LOL. and they forced me to dance,which i didnt want to. LOL. and the girls go crazy when they're drunk and all high up. especially shiera. so,we went home close to midnight. i swear all of us were so drunk that we talk rubbish. Mai was acting like a kid,and so does ira. we dont do this often,thats why. and people in mrt see us like one kind. haha. ira was making the most noise and doing stupid stupid stuffs. LOL. and waty was there being like a monitress asking us to control ourselves. and me and ira made fun of her. so we went home. and luckily noone was at home except for my maid. and i straight away sleep sia. haha. and now im in school. mcm bodooooooo. haha bye, i hate rp.(: i post the pictures of ytd, later when i get home(: I LOVE YTD NATIONAL DAY SPENT WITH THE GIRLS.

Thursday, August 09, 2007, 12:50 PM

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FCUKING HUMAN BEING ON EARTH. WHY CANT YOU JUST GO AND DIE! STOP MAKING M LIFE MISERABLE CAN? THATS THE WAY FOR YOU TO BE COOL AND ATTRACT THOSE MORONS ATTENTION? LMAO! I JUST HATE THE WAY YOU ARE ACTING. BODO SIA. AND YOU THINK YOU CAN HATE ME,WHEREAS I CANT CAUSED YOU'RE MUCH MORE PRETTIER? KISS MY ASSSSSSS! GO JUMP DOWN LAR SIA. I THINK IM MUCH MORE PRETTIER THAN YOU. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. STILLLLLLL!

Labels: AND STOP PRETENDING YOU'RE STILL PURE. LMAO. I HATE YOU., GO FUCK YOURSELF

, 12:11 PM

today lesson was ok. we only have htree teams in the class. about 10 my classmates didnt turned up. maybe the though of other education levels and other jobs having half day made them jealous. LOL. it was alright. it was kind of fun actually. My team was basically not ok at first, but luckily there was Tricia who made it,erm worthwhile hahaha. and i swear i wont let her take pictures with my hp. haha. she took it many lar sia. LOL. anyways, rp still suck cock. hahaha.

okays, three more guys showed me that all guys are the same. hahaha. please lar. say you're diff? if i have a dick,i think i shove it to your ass. LMAO. enough ehy nuyul(: i want to shop. and i want to ask my dad for money. there's so many many nice and cheap clothes online. haha. and i think after guys treating girls like shit nowaday, i becoming to like girls. SO HOW? any takers? I KNOW WATY LOVE ME AND WANTS TO BE MY LESIAN PARTNER! yeah! haha. if only that wasnt a sinful thing to do, i thing i rather fall for girls. OK WHAT AM I THINKING. (: i am straight,at least i think i am(: ok i am! bye! i am!(:

Wednesday, August 08, 2007, 12:47 PM

IM SORRY,GOODBYE -KRIS DAYANTI (:

Sebelum bertemu denganmu hidupku bahagia

Semenjak bertemu denganmu ku makin bahagia

Semakin lama aku smakin tau tentang engkau

Sedikit kecewa ternyata engkau tak baik

Pertama-tama semua manis yang kau berikan

Membuat aku merasakan cinta sebenarnya

Semakin hari semakin terungkap sesungguhnya

Ku makin kecewa ternyata kau penuh dusta

Maafkan ku harus pergi

Ku tak suka dengan ini

Aku tak bodoh seperti kekasihmu yang lain

Terimakasih oh TuhanKau tunjukkan siapa diaMaaf kita putus,

so thank you so muchI'm sorry good bye

Seribu cara kau membuai ku dengan puitis

Maybe kau lupa bahwa aku juga manusia

Yang punya mata telinga hati dan perasaan

Maaf aku pergi dan tak kan untukmu lagi

GANTUNG-MELLY GOESLOW.(WTVR YOU SPELL HER NAME IS)(:

Ku harus menemui cintaku

Mencari tahu hubungan kita

Apa masih atau tlah berakhir

Kau menggantungkan hubungan ini

kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab

Maunya apa ku harus bagaimana kasih

sampai kapan kau gantungcerita cintaku memberi harapan

hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi

Dan meninggalkan dirimu

Detik-detik waktu pun terbuang

Teganya kau menggantung cintaku

Bicaralah biar semua pasti

Tentunya hubungan cinta denganmu

Membuat ku sakit

Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi

Dan meninggalkan dirimu

, 12:12 PM

i hate rp. i really do. grrrr. tmr not half day. and im going to die. i think in the middle of break two. and i hope tmr i get good team mates so I have a better mood to do my work. okays? im so bored. and this post is so random and rubbish. LOL. is there smtng wrong withmy blog? caused eja complaint to me the layout is overlapping. but i viewed it many many times, still the same.(: I WANT MY NATIONAL DAY HOLIDAY TO BE FUN. MAKE IT FUN OK BABES? (:

Tuesday, August 07, 2007, 10:43 AM

AT HOME, I PURPOSELY TOOK PICTURES HAHAHAHA. SEE HOW BUROK I AM(:
GOING TO SCHOOL. AND AFTER SCHOOL.(: SO MUCH DIFF WHEN GNG OUT AND AT HOME EHYS. HAHAHA.

Monday, August 06, 2007, 9:37 AM

IM A HAPPY GIRL TODAY. well,at least better than ytd.(: first ly, i got my nails done to the colour i like. i like nude colours. and at times, bright bright colours. depends on my mood. And no guy is pestering me today. yahoooo!(: and and, my mummy told my bro to order pizza hut! i just had it la. im so full now. i ate the cheese fondue. fuyooo!. hahaha. ok, pardon me if im too happy.

im happy but im bored at home. haha. rp shucks. i dont have any assignement or anything to revise to. mcm ass kan? haha. semester is going to end reall reall soon! but the sad thing is i only have 3 weeks of holiday. like fcuk lar sia. (: nvm i look forward to the 10 weeks of holiday by the end of semester two. im sleepy. tmr schooling, i dont feel like gng cos its computing and mathematics! ughhh! siaks btol. da la, nak tido. (:

Sunday, August 05, 2007, 12:03 PM

CAN SOME OR ANY GUY COME TO ME AND SHOW HOW DIFfERENT THEY ARE?

AND TELL ME THEY ARE NOT SOME TYPICAL SWEET TALKER MOTHER FUCKER (STMF!) I THINK I CAN NEVER FALL IN LOVE AGAIN. ITS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH ME! THE GUYS OUT THERE ARE CHOOSY AND EGOIST. LIKE CAN KISS MY ARSE LAR SEY. ALL GUYS ARE THE SAME. AND I DARE TO SAY ALL! BACK TO DIFFER? GO KILL YOURSELF FIRST. AND BOYFRIENDS SUCK. AND THOSE WHO ARE ATTACHED, YOU WILL ONLY LOVE YOUR BF WHEN THEY'RE ALL SWEET AND NICE. TRUST ME, THEY GET SICK AND TIRED OF YOU WHEN TIME PASS. GUYS! WHAT DO YOU EXPECT. AND I THINK I GOT A BIG AND HUGE THINGY AGAINST GUYS. PARDON ME,COS I HAVENT MET ANY NICE GUYS OUT THERE WHO CAN ACCEPT ANYONE'S FLAWS. GUYS SUCKS, BIG TIME. PERIOD! (:

, 7:02 AM

new skin!

anyways, iWAS supposed to go out with the girls. but my dad was being an ass not to let me go out. ugh! im so sorry girls i have to cancel it the very last minute. really sorry :(

Thursday, August 02, 2007, 4:32 AM

i found this somewhere,give me comments. i find it soo damn trueeee!(:

"Men are like a fine wine. They allstart out like grapes, and it's our jobto stomp on them and keep them in thedark until they mature into somethingyou'd like to have dinner with"

hahahahaha. i found this in a bulletin in friendster.look at this too.(:

Top reasons why ladies today are stillsingle!!

1. The nice men are ugly.

2. The handsome men are not nice.

3. The handsome and nice men are gay.

4. The handsome, nice and heterosexualmen are married.

5. The men who are not so handsome, butare nice men, have no money.

6. The men who are not so handsome, butare nice men with money think we are only after their money.

7. The handsome men without money areafter our money.

8. The handsome men, who are not soniceand somewhat heterosexual, don't thinkwe are beautiful enough.

9. The men who think we are beautiful,that are heterosexual, somewhat niceandhave money, are cowards.

10. The men who are somewhat handsome,somewhat nice and have some money andthank God are heterosexual, are shy and NEVER MAKE THE FIRSTMOVE!!!!

11. The men who never make the firstmove, automatically lose interest in uswhen we take the initiative.

AND I STILL FIND MEN ARE WERID CREATURE ON EARTH.(:

Wednesday, August 01, 2007, 2:30 PM

I AM VERY THE HAPPY TODAY! (:

i just got home. ok not just. at nine JUST now. they last minute wanted to chill. So, i met up with the girls; Waty, mai, sara & ira. they all from sch,and i was from home. hoho. three in their uniforms. we just sat down at coffeebean and we talked crap. TOTALLY CRAP LAR I TELL YOU. i was laugihing so hard and loud caused we acted roughly ok, only the girls will know.(: waty and sara went off earlier. and me and ira went to Mai's home. reached there. mai went to sleep and ira played the lappy. and i looked at her. i was bored lar at Mai's place. BUT, haikal called when i was almost dying.hahaha. i went to meet him lar seyssssss. so they also wanted to see haikal. He was with his bike when he reached under Mai's block. eventho his house was only a few blocks away. WTH.hahaha. so i met with him. He didnt go to work caused he was having fever in the morning. He looked sick and tired la. and his face ame lar like my senior from sec sch. hahaha. i was happy to see him. we talked nonsense. and before parting he say," Tmr can go work alr,I da baik. sebab jmp you." haha. then i just replied with a ," abey suker?" hahaha. then i went off to meet ira and mai at Century Square. and after a while i went home. I was happy when i went home. I kept smiling all the way. and people may think im crazy. (: pics below are ugly,so bear with it. haha. UGLY IS THE NEW BEAUTIFUL WHATTTT!(:

, 5:14 AM

im at home, rotting. i love rotting somehow. rather than going to school and make my brain work the whole day.it's tiring! anywyas, i didnt attend sch despite having UT today. i cant force myself to wake up. i fought with haikal last night. he said ive changed. *laughed damn loud and roll myself on the floor* WTH! he said i became much more bad and naughtier from the first day i knew him. what? you want me to bethe same old nurul since i was born? hahaha. stupid lar you. and then he went mute. and i didnt blardy care lar. i mean, now you're saying im a naughty girl. and you? good boy uh? you can kiss my ass lar seys. hahaha. ok enuf.(: i think you have been riding your bikes with godknows how many girls behind you. haha. and i dont blardy care anymore about you.

you know what? ive just realised smtg after living in this world for almost 17 years. I HAVE A CHOICE. i ddint thought about it this way,.funnily. its just that recently, ive been pondering hard about everything. everything I do do have a choice. I made it that way. the way i wanted to be. and for all my life, if i happened to said " I HAVE NO CHOICE", i guess its a lie. the basic example is that, I HAVE A CHOICE TO BE HAPPY TODAY! (: and of course i will definetly be happy despite all those that happened and came across my day. haha, i know,its stupid.(: but i think i have been doing bad choices for myself for my whole life. i didnt want to study well for my Os,eventho i know i can. and this is where i end up,somewhere pathetic.hahaha. ANYWAYS, i told mom i want go Bali during Hari Raya. the whole family agrees on going on a holiday during Hari Raya. but sometimes, my parents always make slow and last minute changes. just go anywhere,will you? haha. people may think, "holiday? on hari raya? you crazy uh?" hahaha. i have only a small family. and im only close to my Mom side. my dad? they always have conflicts. and even if its Hari raya,we go tho their place,and stare at them. like dolls. might as well dont go. They treat my dad different. like wth? and my mum family, is small as ever. and thats the only time for me to be close to my parents. other days they wil be too busy for it. i dont have a family where i can see them everyday. but i thank God, my family are all close and bonded(: ok enuf. im going to watch movie!(: