To Md Farhan Bin Azman.first of all,i want to apologise to you for the every wrongdoingds ive done.ones that you know about,or those you never know.and by typing this message to you,am greatly sorry if it'll cause any trouble for anyone.
ive thought it over annd over again whther to write this mail or not.eventho its hard for me, i want to apologise to you.i still feel im at hugeee hugggge fault.no,im writng this not to have you thinking i want you back,or cause a chaos between you and your new girl.i wouldnt even want to see you break up with her,cause i know you're much more happy with her than you were with me.ok,enough of our past.farhan,im sorry for all of the lies ive told you.To hurt you,while i know verry while im in the wrong.im the one to blame.i should have suffered,not you.for the past years ive been with you,known you,i think i know you well.but not well enough.by hurting you an,i did hurt too.i swear to God,at times when i talk to you,i wish i could tell all the truth,but i cant help myself to be part from you.caused i loved you.i cant bear to hurt you just for my own verrry stupid mistakes.it was then,i decided to ' run away' from you. ilied to you about my parents,i broke up withyou.but the fact is i just cant bear to hurt you anymore.i decided to be silent and not wanting youto know about the truth.it's not only you,but i am hurt too.till now.friends kept telling me i was selfish,i know that.and i cant stand it.i swear to god again,ive changed.well,i did try.first was to told you the truth,cause i cant bear to lie to you. to let you suffer. cause i kow how it feels.at least i think,i know.but after all those lies ive told you,one thing i will never lie about.ws that i loved you. i loved you a whole lot. my feelings that i cant lie about.i cant possibly dent the love i gave either.cause i did gave my heart and soul.unfortunately,i was the cause of al these.
ANd as for now,you have another women in your life. i pray to God for the very best for you both.i want you to love her more than you love me,i know you can.cause she wont lie to you.like i did.and she wont let you down,like i did to you.avoid me as much as you want.cause im trying my best to forget every single memory of us.and i cant lie to my feelings,that i still love you even right now.even right at this moment you reading this.but this will be the last piece of me that you will hear about.i know,you will share your everything to your girlfriend. but i hope not this.not me writng you this. cause it involves my stupid felings for you still. and i dont want her t think im going after you again.just rest assure an, i wont.cause i know,you wont be falling for me all over again.cause that feelings for me had dried out long ago. its just that i want to clear my every thing to you.for now i hope that i wont have regrets after sending you this,cause eventho i lied,i gave yu yo my heart and soul. all my love.and the love that i can never deny.i know i did a HUGGGGE mistake,but i gotta move on.cause you did an. and want to show you i can.to provemyself im not any weak girl.but ive learnt my lessons,and i will never repeat it.ever.\but as for now,i have to live life this way.alone and silently loving you.but no worries,i wont bother you anymore.so this is it for now.farhan,thans for everything.the memories. and sorry for wasting your monthly bills just for some uselss girl lke me.(:and ya,send my regards to you and you family.assalamualaikum.
This is the letter that i gave him when we broke up.it's sad to see our years of rship goes down the drain.but im tired of trying to lie to you.and i know jolly well i am at fault at this.yes only me.so enough of blaming me as i had learnt my lesson
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