you and i.

Sunday, April 29, 2007, 3:21 AM

i am still upset with myself.

tell me how can i redeem my mistakes to my parents?

really,now the only thing i care in the world is my parent.

i dont bloody care about any guys or any bitches that trying to bring me down.

you can go to hell.

and im trying my best to pray 5 times a day,daily.

but i cant,you see.

there's school.

but i did try.

and i think that's an achievement in me.

but i cant help but feel bad towards my dear parents.

i want to spend more time with them.

i want them to know how much i love them.

and they're my everything.

yes,them.

not any him or any shit.haha.

Saturday, April 28, 2007, 8:27 PM

i just got to know that my faci's baby passed away.

sad ryt?

the baby was like only 3 months old.

and as a dad,he must beproud of his baby.

as he put the picture at his desktop.

aww,i really can feel his loss.

i mean,on that friday,after our break,he have to leave immediately as he said he got news that his son has stop breathing.

really,its sad.

and i know this from siti,my crazy classmate.

and he wont be in school for days.

just hope everytihng's ok for him.

and make hi moved on.

he's a really gd mman uh.(:

, 12:21 PM

, 12:06 AM

i dont want to hate school.

but ive already gotten 2 Cs.

and i hate thta ok.

i feel like crying you know.

i know im not a bright student,but can at least someone treasure what im doing la.

i DID my work okey.

im so pissed.

maybe not jsut because of this.

and i hate myself for forgetting dad's birthday.

what daughter am i.

but ive promised him i will study hard,and i will.

that why im sad about.

im scared that i cant fulfill the promises i made.

and make my parent dissapointed.

im really scared.

and after seeing 2 PATHETIC Cs,

i broke down.

i really cant take it.

and fcuk,i cant stop crying.

even the 2 As i get cant make me smile.

arggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

ok,excuse meee.(:

Labels: i love you and i forever will.

Wednesday, April 25, 2007, 9:07 PM

early in the morning,i had a fought with boyfriend.

i dont love him,as i only like him.

i try to make it clear to him that we're better off like we're right now.

i dont want to go to the next bigg step in relationship.

no doubt,i always have hugee arguements and disagreements just because of little tiny weeny things.

and we wont talk for weeks.

and im not the type of girl who message or look up for a guy after fighting or whatsoever.

you're a guy,so be a gentleman please.(:

we fought again today morning,

and i told him i want to leave his life.

he doesnt reply and texted me 10mins ago stating his sorrry.

awwww.(:

but i have yet to reply to his message.

and iwouldnt even want to be with him as theres some reason for me not to.

we've known each other years ago.

i think wayy before i was with rahmat.

thats sooo long ago.

haha.

enough of that.(:

Anyways,i am getting averae grades at school.

And my parents have been so supportive of what im doing.

i really wan to join the Student Ambassador.

i want to be a noisy kid la.

no more the quiet girl where people can stab my back(:

ive been mixing around with chinese.

haha.

and i told rachael that.

and she said,she's the other way round.haha.

and i'm always going back home with ili.

and i couldnt believe that we're already this close.

i still remember that she's my cousin's exgf.

i cant wait to change my class and meet more new people.

cuter guys maybe?hahaaa.

Labels: i dont want to be with you just yet.

Monday, April 23, 2007, 12:17 PM

let pictures talk.(: i went to meet the girls just now. and went to take my certificate from cambridge. Today didnt wash wash eyes, no hot chicks.(: going to miss my girls la sey.

Take gd care of urself alryts.

Lots of love,

Nuyul Jambus.hahahahaha.(:

Sunday, April 22, 2007, 12:30 PM

ive just realised how much im missing relationship-hood. (is there ever such word.lol.)

and yes,its been two years ive been in a serious,serious relationship.

and the last one was with haireel.

i am happy thee way i am now.

but i think i will be happier if i have a bf who loves me for who i am.

at least i know someone wil be thinking about me before they go to sleep.(:

maybe it's really karma.

whatever ive done to farhan,

God has taught me a lesson not to ever repeat it again.

and i wont.

i put my personal message as " single and hating it.(:"

and everyone IMed me,and asking me whats so bad.

haha.

i will only reply with a smiley face.

and some shameless people even offered to be my bf.

like,wtf.?haha.

i missed being in love,

but im not rready to fall in love just yet.

i know if i do,

i will be hurt and fall out of it fast.

i want to learn and experience stuffs much more.

Then,maybe i'll settle down.

and im only seventeen (okay,soon! haha.)

i just want to study hard first,and make my parent proud of me.

being the eldest in my siblings,

ive got a huge responsibilities ok.

my parents always tekan me that parent always come first.

and i get that message clearly.

and im proud of my mum and dad.

caused they brought me and my other siblings soo well.

can i get married in another less than 5 years?

hahahahaha.

ok,i shall stop.

, 3:45 AM

And here are somemore pictures.(:
I laughed out so louud when looking thru this pictures.
and i think i look uglier now.
and i look cuter last time.hahaha.

i miss this a whole lot. they always cabot class,and come to our class.haha.(:

if i remember clearly,i think this was heats day.(:

it was waty's bdae. and the bestest present ever kan?hahaha.(:

girls,rmb this?haha. i think it was at TP. if im not wrong. and yea,we rawk.(:

going to town late at night. and we went there just to take a pathetic neoprint. haha,zaman kemarok.(:

hari raya wif schoolmates.(:

- when there was a you and me.

this are actually guys who have worked with my parents. and yea i did have a huge crush on that green shirt guy. but it was all in the past.haha.

mat reps.(:

i was mad at ayim,he's not supposed to be in that pict,i am!(:

awww,i miss this class a whole lottttt.

Labels: memories.

Saturday, April 21, 2007, 10:15 AM

im so happy la.
the weekends are here.
and school is tiring but im not hating it.
Dont worry.(:
i guess i wont be going out this weekend.
i want to rot at home.
and spend time with my brothers.
and i want to meet my parents.
so long ive never meet them la.
eversince ive started schooling,
we cant meet each other.
as i will be away when they're at home.
and vice versa.(:
and ive gotta admit i miss them.
RP is great.
but im scared about my future.
i hopre i really did a right choice about it.
and no,i wont sstop till poly.
i want to get a degree at least.(:
yea, high hope la for someone hopeless like me.
haha.
im going to Chico's birthday party.
and i cant waittttt.(:
he invited me personally la.
i so love him like a lottt.
anyone want to tag along?
(:
hahaha.
and many people is so gunduuu ehy.
they dont know what is RP.
like wth.
i was chatting with an old friend who stays in woodlands.
and he asked me where the hell is RP.
and what in the world is that.
stupid ryt?
haha.
if you dont know even,
GO FIGURE!
(:
im tired,and i only want my beautiful sleeeep.(:

Wednesday, April 18, 2007, 11:08 AM

today is the second day of school.

and the lessons at sch is pretty interesting.

we only have to do online worksheets and presentations.

i prefer ytd lesson wif Miss Su, rather than todays' Basic Science.

well,i have never liked science,so probably that's the reason why i dont really like the lesson.

anyways,classmates are okay.

esp that a beng,Sam.

haha.

he keeps on disturbing me and call me an ah lian just because i stared at him.

haha.

but i want to change class.

i want a much more better classmates.

and i think ive improved a lotttt when presenting my team's slides.

cause im the only one who talks a lot and answering the facilator questions.

and to me thats an improvement as last time i dont like to talk much.

and i am scared to talk and present a speech infront of people.(:

i dont mix around with malays so much,i shall admit.

and i rather spend my time spending it infront of my lappy or talk to my chinese mates.

i dont like malays,and im one.

haha.

i dont think malays have nothing to be proud of,except that nowadays kids are only proud cause they have tattoos and drink.

like,wtvr ehy?(:

how stupid can they be.

kalo gitu,bile melayu mau maju kan?(:

Sunday, April 15, 2007, 1:40 PM

ok,my orientation at rp was funn.

the last day was the highlight.

i thought we're gng to have the typical campfire thingy.

but no.

they held a hugeee concert for us.

it was soo fun la.

there's like a moshpit.

and everyone tarts to jump and groove to the music.

verry superrr duperr fun(:

rp is soo fun la.

the people are super friendly.

my SEG mates are all nicee.

and the student leaders,

awww,dont mention about it.haha.

and i met a lottt of new friends.

rp has alot of cute chinese guys.

and i dont fucking bother about the malay guys.

they are so typical.(:

anyways,im looking forward to school,unexpectedly.

and my parents ar being supportive of whatever im doing.

and im so happy laaa.(:

but prolly when sch starts,

i wil meet them only weekends.

reason being is i have to wake up so damn early where they are sound asleep.

and i my lessons will end at estimatedly around 4.

and i will only reach home by 6.

and they will be off to work by then.

awww,how sad,ryt?

haha.

but there's weekends.but that time they be busy la.

alaa,wat to dooo.

haha.(:

Thursday, April 12, 2007, 12:12 PM

today was orientation at rp.and it was fun la.i like my classmates,they are ok.except for the guys,you know,egoo.haha. but we girls are the noisy ones and always smiling to each other. and while our facilitator explan some stuffs to us,we chatted in msn.(: there's only 4 malays in my class,and yea,no hot or cute guys seyy. verry sad.haha. but during break,i met up with ili,and we had our lunch. and the canteen was like so packed la. and my class ended earlier. and i went home with shalbiah. tomorrow is another day. i have to wake up early,like shit la ehy.haha. and 969 is always full of people in the morning. im not sure whether i can meet quorfaine and sara's bf at cb tmr. insyallah eh if my orientation ends fast.(: and i hope it ends fast. i want meet more new and friendly people. and can any hot guys be in my group?haha.cause i havent had enough sight seeing.hahaha.

Labels: sch is funn.

Monday, April 09, 2007, 1:27 PM

im excited for school. and at the same time im scared. all the people there are so intimidating. the last timei went to rp for my lappy's configuration,when i smiled at the people,some smiled back and some did not. like pantats kan?hehe. anyways, i wil be meeting gay boy tmr. and i cant wait.haha.reason being is that, i havent meet him for more than a month. and i heard more about him from my aunt. he was a naughty boy back then. and yea,enough said.(: i really want a baby boy. can i dont get maried and have a son instead? (: i really want a baby. cause babies are freaking adorable. and i want to be a young mom. i tell you uh,i like to imagine. and next think i want to imagine is to burn my fatss. (:

Sunday, April 08, 2007, 9:05 AM

ive repaired my desktop,and these are the pics that are in them.verry old one. and there's tons of them. time flies so fast eh?(: