honestly,i miss having a bf. having someone to care for me even im at the worst. i talked wif waty about it ytd. sad,yes. its not that i miss my exbfs. its just that, i miss having someone just to text me asking what am i doing. and saying that he loves me. to be truth,i cried thinking about this. i wonder why does some people can have what i dont. i guess it really is karma. i did hurt farhan the last time. i made him change the way he is now. maybe it my turn to go thru what he went thru. i got so fed up of love. and told mom to find me a husband for next 5 years. i thought mom would agree to it,but she said that i should go find myself.and pray to God for the best. i did,i pray and hoping. and here i am stil waitng for a miracle to happen. i shall admit,i try to fall in love. but always end up with the wrong one. like those dirty minded etc and most of them are not my type. and i admit that im choosy. veery choosy. its for my own good. i wnt to have a bf with a good ccareer in the future,those with at least an education. and i want him to be a good man. one who can lead me and teach me more about my religion. i guess it's just not the time for me to have a bf. and now my aim is to concentrate on my poly. maybe find my soulmate there?hahah(: oh God,let me be strong. and i dont want to dissapoint my parents eventho they nag and nag at me and always disagree with me. i still am a gd daughter.and i want to be a gd one.(:
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