my love,
ive to admit you're the best i ever had.
the best i could asked for.
you made me smile by your corny jokes.
and you made me cried whenever you let go your hands that held my hands,and when ever you look away from me.
ive to admit im not a strong girl.
but i guess we have to let go.
let go of our times being together.
all the ups and downs we had together.
i got to listen to my brain,not my heart.
caused i believe the saying which says,
" Love is blind. And love is a mater of the hearts."
ive got to think about my future being with you,love.
this might be a cliche thing to say but,
loving someone doesnt mean that you have to spend the rest of my life with him.
therefore,
i still believe that whoever is going to be my life partner,
is may be someone whom i dont love.
but love,
i know its not going to be you.
caused i loved you.
and i know i wont be spending the rest of my planned life with you,
caused you're simply not in my league.
yes i have my own ego.
and you have your own,love.
that's why.
girls and boys were born not to understand each other.
but its funny how peole can fall in love with the opposite sex.
dont you think so,love?
we fought over minor things and we simply make up by the kisses and the way you held me around my waist.
its a funny thing.
how we can fight over and over again.
and I know exactly how you're going to make our relatonship better.
but i still try so hard to looked away from you.
but those eyes that stared at me,
and stating that you loved me,
made my heart melts.
honestly,
i dont know whether that is for real,
or you're just another STMF.
but love,
remember that one day i know we're going to be miles away.
and that one day,
i will still think of you.
caused i wont forget my past.
where the little steps made me where i am now.
that one day in the future,
i sit by the window and imagine who are you making out with at that moment,
while im all alone miles away,thinking of you.
and wonder if we ever bumped into each other sometime,
will you still remmeber how i looked like when i slept on your laps when we were blinded by our love.
and will you still remember my distorted face when i woke up in the morning in your arms.
i bet you wont,love.
but i will.
and i wonder why do we have to fall for each other from the beginning when i knew very well we were never going to last.
that, i still wonder.
-NuyulAishah,
Labels: my love.
