now i really cant be bothered with guys.
well,let them be.(:
to dearest,
i think let us end it here.
let us just pretend we have never know each other.
im tired of waiting for your calls,which has never been happening.
im trying to deny my heart.
saying that i dont like you.
but i cant,you see.
everytime my phone rings,and everytime someone goes online,
i was only hoping for you.
and noone else.
but miracles dont ever happen to me.
i dont blame it on God.
never.
i just thought that this is part of pracel of growing up.
maybe its not even love that im feeling.
maybe its just mere infatuation or admiration.
but you have nothing to be admired about.
i dont blame you for everything.
i just think its unfair for me to still hang on to you.
maybe you have good intention,
you dont want me to be hurt by your outside friends,
thats why you may be trying to keep a distance from me.
but God knows.
i only wanted you to change.
dearest,
promise me you wont get into any fights anymore when im not by your side.
i dont want to hear from people,
you get yourself in trouble.
i want you to get rid of your company of friends.
i dont want to see you only change when 10 years has passed,the one you told me about.
i want you to change now.
i dont want you to regret all those stupid and nonsensical stuffs you're doing now.
dearest,your parents love you.
and i thank God they saved you before anything happened to you in the past.
dearest if only you know how miserable and hurt was i the way you're treating me.
the way you're acting when we're tgther.
but i dont want to keep thinking about it.
maybe that is just you.
you,
the kind i always hated to be with.
now,im trying to forget everything i know about you.
thanks for everything.
maybe we were never meant to be.
cos im better off with someone else that is much more better than you.
one who can be there whenever i need them.
unlike you,
only there when you want to.
Labels: let us come back to square one.
