now that i know about your past,
i think twice about going out with you.
i have always trying to avoid your type.
and never did i expect you told me the truth just now when you called.
really,never.
but i want to be the one who change you to be a better person.
and i hope you will change.
i dont care if you want to hurt me,
i want you to change.(:
anyways,
haikal dearest called.
i swear i screamed out loud.
the longest convo we ever had on the phone.
thats why i knew more about him.
i swear i wanted to put down the phone and wished i hadnt knew him.
but well,
i try not to be selfish.
he wanted me to come over to his hse,
cos he missed me and he was bored.
but i didnt want to as i was lazy to get ready eventho our hse is not so far.
he wanted to come over to my hse then,
but i told him he better not.
as he was tired and sleepy.
and maybe next week meeting him.
and im unsure abt my feelings for him now.
must i get excited or shd i avoid him?
noooo.i wont la dearest.(:
so we taled crap.
and it wa totally crap.
out of a sudden he said,
"You,sing for me a Nelly Furtado song?haha."
i said to him,
"haikal,you ok or not?"
and he laughed non stop.
next was he asked me this,
"you,kenape kalau anak babi jalan,dier tunduk?"
i swear i laughed so hard caused he asked me out of the sudden.
he gave me this answer,
" give up kan. pasal dier malu mak bapak dier babi."
haha,i laughed so hard.
it was fun talking to him.
until he told me the truth about him.
but i have assure him with this,
" You, one who is a gd person cn become bad. And what more you. You jahat pon, bole ejadi baik pon kan. And i tak kan tinggalkan you. And i understood your situation if you cnt be in a rship."
i swear i wanted to cry when he said that he cared for me thats why he cant meet me that often.
god, i ame to realise this.
love can definitly be blind.
i have always dislike your kind.
and now i think im falling for you.
i guess i have to be strong to face all this.
and i know you be htere right by my side.
Labels: dearest, i swear im going to be by your side. even if we cant be together. (:
