im at home, rotting. i love rotting somehow. rather than going to school and make my brain work the whole day.it's tiring! anywyas, i didnt attend sch despite having UT today. i cant force myself to wake up. i fought with haikal last night. he said ive changed. *laughed damn loud and roll myself on the floor* WTH! he said i became much more bad and naughtier from the first day i knew him. what? you want me to bethe same old nurul since i was born? hahaha. stupid lar you. and then he went mute. and i didnt blardy care lar. i mean, now you're saying im a naughty girl. and you? good boy uh? you can kiss my ass lar seys. hahaha. ok enuf.(: i think you have been riding your bikes with godknows how many girls behind you. haha. and i dont blardy care anymore about you.
you know what? ive just realised smtg after living in this world for almost 17 years. I HAVE A CHOICE. i ddint thought about it this way,.funnily. its just that recently, ive been pondering hard about everything. everything I do do have a choice. I made it that way. the way i wanted to be. and for all my life, if i happened to said " I HAVE NO CHOICE", i guess its a lie. the basic example is that, I HAVE A CHOICE TO BE HAPPY TODAY! (: and of course i will definetly be happy despite all those that happened and came across my day. haha, i know,its stupid.(: but i think i have been doing bad choices for myself for my whole life. i didnt want to study well for my Os,eventho i know i can. and this is where i end up,somewhere pathetic.hahaha. ANYWAYS, i told mom i want go Bali during Hari Raya. the whole family agrees on going on a holiday during Hari Raya. but sometimes, my parents always make slow and last minute changes. just go anywhere,will you? haha. people may think, "holiday? on hari raya? you crazy uh?" hahaha. i have only a small family. and im only close to my Mom side. my dad? they always have conflicts. and even if its Hari raya,we go tho their place,and stare at them. like dolls. might as well dont go. They treat my dad different. like wth? and my mum family, is small as ever. and thats the only time for me to be close to my parents. other days they wil be too busy for it. i dont have a family where i can see them everyday. but i thank God, my family are all close and bonded(: ok enuf. im going to watch movie!(:
