im feeling much at ease now. i just had a long "cry myself to sleep" ytd night. which I have never done that for ages. i just realised Haikal can only treat me the way he is treating me right at this moment. so, im letting him go for real for now. i'm going to tell him i am not ready and i dont want us to break this lovely friendship either. and i hope he understand. He may make me laugh and cry at the same time. but those laughters still cant cover up for those words he used to hurt me. i knew this would come sooner or later caused I never liked your kind. enough said. i dont wished to hurt myself or him any further.
baybeats this weekend. going with the usually four,hopefully. i just want to get out from this mess. i want to meet the three of you and laugh like noone business,can? cause the only three which are always there despite our busy schedule. the only person who makes me feel better now is my little brother. whenever i cry, he will come to me and say, " kakak, why you cry?"
i will just smile at him and hugged him.(:im meeting dinn aft sch tmr. i hope to have a good evening with him. he always make me feel as if im the most important person. ok bye, i want to sleep back.
