its been so long since i last posted an emo post. haha. im feeling bored lar today. ok come on let me try to be emo once more.(: dont mind me please.
first thing first, tell me if going out with two guys is wrong? tell me why must i focus on that other guy more than the other. ok confusing? haha. well let just put this two blardy buggers as dinn and haikal. haha. fine, i know dinn almost 3 years back. but i have never been serious with him. however, he's always there whenever i need a shoulder to cry on or a listening ears about my every problem. the funny thing is that he has never been close to any girl except for me. and he was my exbf sch mate. haha. and he is my old tutor's little bro.haha. it's funny how the world is so small,you see. and now i thing we are being so much closer. on the other hand, there's this guy who i know him thru online ages ago. haha.he was a nice person la. wellbefore i know about him la. but he can be polite and vulgar at times. he was never my taste. but well,i have to admit i fell for him. and he's another one. he was my senior brother. haha. and they look the same i tell you. haha. except haikal is shorter and cuter.haha. i never did liked my senior. i hated him and his gang. i dont wish to say who.haha. but for now, i seriously dont know where im heading to. both have thier flaws and their good side,of course. dinn has a brighter future with. haikal? im not sure. its not that im going for all these. but i tell you, my parents are very calculative when it comes to me habing a bf. i dont blame them. they want me to have a good future. i totally undestand that. who doesnt want a bright future right? i would love to. to me love for a man, it doesnt matter much as the love to my family and God. and i dont blardy care who am i going tobe with for my future. bcos i kow every time i fall in love, it wont last. know why? cause humans are always like that we fight without no reason and these make things complicated for both men and women. heh,enuf said.
