you and i.

Sunday, September 30, 2007, 8:45 PM

DIE DIE DIE DIE.

i will literally die cos i havnt do my reflection journal for my computing module.

hahahhaha.

and its way past the deadline.

and i know it will effect my grades.

well,why bother.

i know what excuse im going to come up with if he asked.

i totally forget and went to bed early last night.

ergh!(:

, 12:13 PM

i was listening to Raya's song.well the sad ones.

especially Sepasang Kurung Biru.

and it so reminded me of the guy whom i know for 5 frigging years.

the 3 yrs ex bf to be exact.

and everytime i listen to it, i will cry.

well,its just too hard to forget something that i have held for 5 years.

well, now we're just like strangers. we dont call or text each other liek we used to caused hes attached with another girl.

well,i wouldnt want his new girlfriend to feel insecure. cause i am his longest ex. and his first love.

im crying bot because i want him back.

i just miss those 5 years memories with him.

and how he can live everyday of his live without remembreing that i was once his girlfriend.

and now we're strangers.

thanks anyways(:

, 10:22 AM

OK NEW HAIR.HAHAA.

but it look so flat lar.

what to do,rebonding always like dat mah.(:

and i was bored anyways.(:

, 9:38 AM

school has been great! *did i just say that? LOL.

it was great because of the classmates.

they're fun people.

we make stupid jokes and watch DIRTY movies together.

hahaa.

and i love teaming up with karenn and wuenyin. HAHA.

they make science and maths FUN.

well karenn i want my donuts from you.(:

everyone else is a great bunch.

and i just did my hair.

oh god i so love the colour lar.

and no,my hair is not spolit.

it is so silky and smooth indeed.(:

who says you cant rebond,colour and highlight at the same time?

hehe.

well,i love my hair lar.and i cut it short cos i want a new look(:

Taggies Repliies:

didi: ok..i linked u oreadi..u link too aitez..(=

NUYUL: okays thanks didi!(:

Eja: Hahakz... adi siak ahz... nanti adi masok rp baru ko tau!

NUYUL: hahaa. takpe,aku tak nak adi masok.dan ak tau adi tak akan masok(:

karenn-nuyul: -_-''' sissy all the way....*vomits*

NUYUL: hahaa. you lor sissy's your sweetheart. haha.

Adi: HIHIHIHIHIHIHHIHIHIHIHHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHIHHI BE THE 29TH PERSON COME ON COME ON!
27 Sep 07, 22:48 Adi-eja: no eja! hell no! noooooooo. .rp sucks

NUYUL: hahaa,adi shut up uh.enough about rp.i hate rp myself so shut up.hahaha.

simun: relinked (: lols, relink me too girl <3

NUYUL: haha. relink you alr babe!(:

super-nas: lagu mcm sedap gtu eh. hehe. anyway anyway, miss u bangat!!

NUYUL: sedap sbb buah hati yang nyanyi(: miss awak banget tooooo(:

Thursday, September 27, 2007, 1:13 PM

im bored. and chatting with firdaus chico is the only best thing i can do right now.

he's an ass,like literally.

haha,he was born crazy. even his mom said so.

and we've been contacting each other more.

and today he gave many i mean many of his picture.

from baby till now.hahaa.

and even his ex picture, his grandmum, and his parents.

hahaaa.

and he's going to call me real sooon.(:

ok im bored,and i dislike this one ~~friend~~bitch.

ergh!(:

no,noone new,its someone old and dying.

hahaa

Wednesday, September 26, 2007, 12:30 PM

its alr tuesday night. how time flies. and i remmebred that when I was younger I used to think that time pass super slow like a snail.hahaa.
anyways, ive cancelled tuiton for today, cause im too tired and wanted to rest.
and spent quality time with my brothers.

my 5 year ld didnt went to sch as he was sick.
but he managed to fast till the end. wah lao. that boy uh,so strong.hahaa.
school has been okay.

classmates have been great. (:

but still,i hate rp. haha.

this post is totally random shit. im bored,and imturning in straight after this. how nice to sleep at 930 pm. hahaa.

and oh ya,last two days i saw haikal's brother.
i hate bumping into him,cause i will always bump into his brother everytime.

and no doubt, it reminded me of Haikal. cause they look quite the same.

and it sucks. ergh!

to think of it i dont really matter to him.

cause we used to share everything,and suddenly he has his bike,and his bike is like his new darling.

thats why i hate bikes. esp guys with bikes. no doubt i have phobia cause one of my friend passed away cause of an accident. and fromthen on, i try to avoid motorbikes.

and i couldnt imagine that even a motorbike can change a person lvoe and attitude.

haha.thanks eh.(:

Tuesday, September 25, 2007, 1:40 PM

looooooook at the time. its only 9.15 lar sey. ok waty must be sleeping like a pig now.(:

and im at school now.

and im tired and sleepy.

and today morning was raining and how i wished i can stay at home and sleep on my bed till noon.

but i haad fun ytd breaking fast with sec sch mates.

but sadly only 7 people altogether were there.

but the time spend was quite fun and exciting.

the corny jokes, the irritating dance steps and remembering our secondary school days.

and sadly khairul wasnt there. sedih la kannnnn.

haha. and rememberng the days esp the bestest birthday i ever had. haha

khairul lar stupid. mummy's boy. cannot go out.

but the breaking fast at El-Shiekh was nice.

i love the ambience.

i want meet them again can?

with khairul around can?

hahahaha. ok shut up.(:

TAGS REPLY;

karenn: what me... is i alway see u , u smile then i smile one...haha...u too cheerful la..thats why

NUYUL: haha. you cant expect me to cry when i see you right? LOL.

ELA: I dont even find it emo. BOOOOOO...hahahhahaa

NUYUL: haha. goooooood.(:

wyin: heh,cheers to singlehood (: sch starts tmrw ):

NUYUL: yes cheers to singlehood.(: and sadly sch start alr. nvm,you can see me liao. LOL.(:

salamah: eh, that song is my all time favourite sey (: nice song (:

NUYUL:haha. thanks.(:

Sunday, September 23, 2007, 7:13 AM

2 YEARS,2 MONTHS AND 4 DAYS exactly ive been in singlehood.(:
and i still wonder how did i really survived? hahaaa.
well i guess those memories with the 3 yrs exbf still lingers.
haha. AND ELA THIS IS NOT AN EMO POST,THANK YOU.(:

anyways, my paprents is being such an irritating people on earth.
erghhh!
and i have yet to do my RJ for ytd's module.haha.
and i totally forget about it till i stare at the calculator. and it reminded me of mathematics.
pffffftttt.
hahaa.
ok i got to gooo.(:
and im going to my aunt's house cause my cousin's bday is today.
ergh,i hate gatherings cause they will nag at me.
and luckily my pazrents wont be there.
they will,i tell you,will make things better worst.
parents,what do you expecttttttt!
grrrrrr.

Saturday, September 22, 2007, 4:52 AM

ergh.thanks ehy blogger.

ive ust updated a long post,and then,pooof! its gone.

like fuck lar sey. erggggh!

today friday! yeaaa!

and ive been giving tuiton the past few days, and i only have like 4 to 5 hrs of sleep.

and before this,i always have a least 10 hrs of sleep. haha.yes,10!!

lols. and school ok lr. the same thing as last semester. i wouldnt even bother to elaborate. haha.

i feel as if im such a loner in this whole entire campus.

not that i dont have friends its just that not those i hang out with.

everyone have some friends to hang out. but i dont.haha.

but hell,what do i care.

i only came here to study. futhermore, i only have time for my girls. and talking about them,i miss them like a whole lot.

haha. let the fasting month end fast and Hari Raya to come by soon. and we're going to party party for like 2 FCUKING NIGHTS LAR SEYYYYYY!

haha. i lioookeeeee. heh,i cant wait laa sey.

and i have to bear with for at least 2 weeks before i can continue with my normal life after school.

and to have my sufficient sleep. 2 weeks? long lar sey. hahaha

and ive beensleeping in the bus when going to school. which i have never done so. haha.

and yes sleeping back from woodlands to tampines.

last time only sleep form yishun to tmapines. hahaha.

see how exhausted can life be? haha.

i want to rebond,but nowadays my curls have been obeying and always make me like them.haha

i think they're jealous arggggg! ok im done. and today is computing module.like fcukkkk!

haha. and im damn hungry laaa.haha.

ok bye! im sleepy lar seeeeyyyyyy!(:

Labels: waty gembiRAAAAAAAAAAAAAA LOL

Tuesday, September 18, 2007, 5:14 AM

in new class. the people are ok. well,we tend not to talk so much during the first day.

and its fasting month sey. it feel so werd not to go down for breaks and my stomachis going grrrrr.

haha. ok shut up.

ive got to teach tuiton after school to my cousin. and im breaking fast over there. hopefully my aunt cook nice dishes for me to gobble up.

im done with my work for my team. and that guy in my class look i mean really look like Wan Galah.

seriously and when i look at him it reminds me of Wan Galah.

haha. and im bored. and the victim of my boredoom is Adi.

HAHA. he have to layan my nonsense in MSN.

and babi, aku tao lar skola aku sampah,like literally. hahaha

haha.hes changed, but hew still an idiot eventually. hahahaha

Labels: new class.

Sunday, September 16, 2007, 9:04 PM

im sleepy. but i cant seems to sleep. ergh!

monday scool starting. oh brotheerrrrrrr!

new class,new classmates and the whole new introduction thingy. how troublesome.

thanks ehy rp. thank you many2.

i swear i will miss w35gians.(: eventho we're not that bonded, at least im comfortable with you guys.

well hopefully the new classmates will be fun and bonded people.(:

everyone in my house is fasting. and yes even my little brother.

i was shocked he managed to fast till ytd break fast.

caused he didnt eeven woke up for his pre dawn meal.

he's so strong sey. haha.

and yes he skipped the first day. but eventually,hes doing good.(:

and hes only five mind you.

haha. but too bad, my other brother start fasting at the age of 4. gilekan,i know.haha

and i started at the age of five.(:

i seriously cant wait to rebond. and i cant wait for fasting month to end.

but i aint excited about hari raya. dont ask me. i also dont know.haha

, 4:00 PM

emo tak jadik okeh.haha
KONON HOTSUTFF UH. KONON EHY! HAHA look at aisyah's bonch.hahaha.
helluuuuuuu!(:
we were trying to copy the pose of those mat bedok. haha. SETOP IT SIOLLLLLS! HAHAHAAHA.

STOP KAU MENCURI HATIKU,HATIKU.HAHA.

i kinda love the way ira lean on mai. haha

AND WE LOVE SELF TIMER. HAHAHA.

OKAY I CANT HELP IT.BUT I SO LOVE THE NIGHT SPEND WITH THE GIRLS.

serious, i want more.
and it will be more than perfect if there was MAS and ATIQ around.

we took photos. and i super like it lar seyyyy!

haha.

EHHHH,I SUKER BANGET LARRRR.! (:

Labels: I LOVE QUORAINE TAOOOOOOSS (:

Saturday, September 15, 2007, 9:51 PM

look at the time.

its almost seven in the morning. and suprsingly im up.

well i cant go back to sleep after my pre dawn meal.

the night before i break fast over at granny's house.

and cousin just came back from his POP. omg,i tell you,

he is so slim lar sey only after 2 months.

not fair,if like that also i want go NS laaaaaarrr.

haha. but too bad hes darker. haha.(:

going out with the girls tomorrow. tak sabar taos!

i want to get my dosage of laughters and quality time with my girls.

eventhough we're close, at times they can be a pain in the arse.

but eventually they're the ones who understand me the best.

i can be very emotional and difficult at times, but they never fail to give me advice and listening ears.

korang sweet,tao?hahaha. did i jsut say that.

and ira please please please give me back my ezlink tomorrow. im dying without it lar sey.hahaha.

and monday school,if no ezlink,i die. the fare is super duper expensive laaa.(:

and especially thanks to dearest aishah for being all nice and sweet for the concern early in the morning.

thanks ehy babe.(: i appreciate it all.

taggies reply;

YANNUR: hello makcik. 2nd day of fast has just gone. guess, im not too late to wish u "selamat menjalani ibadah puasa".. =)) hv a gd wkend.

NUYUL: hello makcikkk!!(: yes babe,happy fasting to you too alryts.(: take care!

ELA: whatever..living in your own dreams, like always..

NUYUL: haha,diam ehy ela. hahaha.

aishah: Omg Nuyul.. That is like so sad.. Moved on beb with life.. There will be other guys awaiting fer euu..

NUYUL: aww babe. thanks alot. im moving on,but its only reflecting. but i really appreciate the care and concern. thanks alot babe(:

Friday, September 14, 2007, 3:54 PM

ok this is going to be a long and quite an emotional post.

well its not always im doing this lar okays.(:

if to think back ive been going out with many many guys eversince the last time i have a bf,which was two years or so?

and truthfully, never was i happy and like it when i was out with different guys.

except that i am comofrtable with their company.

even all those kisses and hugs i dont really quite like it.

i can only pretend to smile and say i like them,when actually i just dont.

no men has really open up my heart and really touched me with their words.

im tired of pretending really.

and arent you guys really tired of talking sweet talks to girls?

i msn-ed with Mai ytd about having a bf or whatsoever.

she told me how she get jealous looking at people with bf like for so long alr.

ive gotta admit i am too. i gave her a quick response saying i dont really need a boyfriend right now.

it was too quick,and i thought maybe its jsut not the time.

but to think back,fooling around with guys is just too tiring. and the one who will get hurt is going to be me at the end of the day.

well,i cant blame the exbfs about whatever happened to me now.

but i did all these caused i want to see how guys really react with girls.and how long can they sitck to one.

i know where i stand however,i got no looks or even a little teeny weeeny things to be admired of.

but still, guys do practice their egos on a girl like me.

see how cruel can they get?

i find that im not pretty much happy the way i am at this moment.

i mean im much more happy not being attached with any guys. but im just a normal huan being who crave for attention,love, care and concern from others.

i guess theres not much difference in mai and me except for the outer part.(like duh!!)

we want to settle down,but we always get the wrong kinda guys,and we mingle and know many other guys.

but the fact is we really want to settle down sooner or later.

and we know what we're doing is wrong.

i dont need anyone to nag and nag and say that im doind is wrong,cause i myself know that.

but can you jolly well find for me one kind soul in this world?

well easier said than done,huh?

but ive just been faking my happiness,really.

i still misses the exbf at some point of time.

the 3 yrs exbf and the last exbf.

now that they're happy with their new girlfriends,

how can i show to them im happy right now?

and i really hope the 3 yrs exbf one day will ring me up and asking me how's life for me.

and i swear im going to cry and tell him everything.

yes,likei used to. i still remember when we used to cry over little things when we were together.

and im the first girl he ever cried for.

when he used to show to me he can support me in the future to come.

when he told me everything about his new girlfriend,and i was crying over the phone.

and when he asked why, i just laughed and it made me only to cry harder.

when i told him off not to contact me ever again cause i know how exactly his girlfriend feels when hes contacting me,the exgf who he loves the most

when his late granny was alive and hoping we get married with her ring.

and how his family know about me. but not my family.

how he used to told me he was landed in the hospital caused of a rare disease,

and i cried so bad and it was actually april's fools day. (:

and when i preteneded to ask for a break up,and he was actually crying infront of me,

and when i suddenly burst out laughing and we played catching at the end.

when i cried wth him when his late granny past away.

whenever he went to esplanade everytime we quarrelled and whenever he asked me why i know he was there, i told him God wants us to be together forever.

still, he moved on. and why am i still here?

crying and trying to get an answer that wont prolly come to me.

did he really forget everything?

well,thats much more memories we spent together as an item or jsut as friends.

telling myself now,am i really happy the way i am now.

i guess not. (:

, 11:41 AM

im happy and proud to see razz fasting.

well,that was what he claimed it to be.

and yes i hope its true.

alamak,abang2 gangster puase lar beb.

ahaha. and everytime i will disturb him he will he's an angel.

an angel indeed razz(:

im so full after breaking my fast.

my family thought of going to grannny's house. but mom was way too sic to drive us there.

so we ordered maid to buy for us food.(:

and hell it was too many that our stomach couldnt eat after eating for 10 mins. haha.

im using my desktop now. and i dont like.caused im not use to it.

stupid bro is being sucha bitch cos he wants to use my lappie to dohis F&N homework. HAHA.

i had a good laugh with saradonna on the phone jsut now.

now i cant wait for him to come and talk to me.

caused i told everythiing about him to saradonna.

and being girls who always get fooled by guys,

we decided to have a plan.but we cancelled evrything caused it will be just a waste of time and our precious bills.

haha. but its darn fuuny laaaa.(:

at least i have my dosage of laughter with saradonna.

thanks ehy babe.

and yes not forgetting ytd talking with maibraddy and waty(:

i cant wait to go out during the weekends with the girls.

i really miss it okays.

and yes i cant wait to go out with primary school mates.

and look at how much they have grown.

and yes i cant wait to rebond and highlight!!!!!!!!

haha,ok im way too excited.

and yes ust now i acheived to pray for every prayers.

omg,im freaking proud okays(:

, 4:52 AM

i feel so sinful after whatever happened in my life.

and yes,im going to change. but i think slowly.(:

i will start to pray 5 times a day like i used to.

and to start being nice to my little bros.

haha.

yes i think i can do it.

caused i did it in the past.(:

Thursday, September 13, 2007, 3:53 PM

ok im clean im clean.

a friend of mine declare and explain everything to me.

its not that you are only 'clean' after 44 days.

but!!!

it means that when you drink you have 44 days to taobat.(ok i dont know the eng word for it.)

thank god. really. that means i can fast in peace.(:

ps: &icantmeethimforonewholemth.iwilldefinetlymissthehugsandkisses.grrrrr!

, 6:30 AM

ok tomorrow fasting. and yes i will be fasting.

everything is between God and me.

even my cousin said so. i should jsut fast.and hes fasting too.

haha. tsk tsk.cousin cousin.

hes one idiot moron.

he used my hp and talk to god know who. and he likes to beat up people for fun.

haha,idiotic basterd.

and i sure cant wait for school to start.

ive checked my classmates alr!

many malays. much more tha last semester's class.

haha. hopefuly they're nice people.

and the guys and girls are pretty much handsome and pretty.

haha. ehem!(:

and i also cant wait to rebond and highlight my hair! gggaaaaarrrrwwww!

i will do it in the middle of fasting month,and that is for Hari Raya celebration obviously.

oh greaaaaat.

i sure cant wait. and im alrighty now.

good goood.

and im in the same class as SAM HAHAHAHAHAHA.

and i think im going out for a date ltr.

last day babe before fasting.(:

and i want to eat all i want. but i cant you see,my throat is being sucha bitch.

how niiiccceeee.(:

Wednesday, September 12, 2007, 4:29 PM

its been god only know how long ive never talked to haikal on the phone.

as i was sick,and everything wasnt going my way.

i put it as my msn nick.

and he called my hp after chatting for awhile in msn.

i swear i got no feelings. neither am i excited.

i wanted to so called sindir him,

but being in the situation i am now,i cant be bothered.

tell me,do you really care after i told you i was sick,and that was why the phonecall was for?

or was it just to show you're a gentleman,jsut for the sake of showing?

haissssh,i dont know lar ehy.

it makes me feel sad all over again.

and he kept reminding me to sleep and off my lappie.

well,i'll be going off to sleep soon,thou.

i will roll and roll and try to sleep.

, 3:01 PM

and i thought i will get better after having flu and a bad cough for the past few days.

but HELL NO.

i think im having tonsils caused everytime i try to swallow it hurts.

and it sucks.and mind you,i ate only breakfast. and i drink only plain water the whole day.

and my body temperature is rising. ergggh.

how nice. but i wont tell my parents caused i want to go out tomorrow.(:

wel,im still strong laaa.(:

and after that, i will whine to mama and ayah that im sick.

and i tell you they give princess treatment to me.(:

but they have start their naggings since ytd. i cant take it,you know.

haha. and everytime mom nags,i will turn to my dad and shrug and say,

"i dont wish to fight or talk back. if not i think there will be world war three."

and dad will laugh and mom will nag and nag.

and i lok at mom and say,

"mom's job is to nag eh? not tired ehy?haha"

and yar as expected the nagging continues.

haha.(:

Tuesday, September 11, 2007, 3:29 PM

its funny why ,my parents still scold and get mad at me when i came back at ten at night.

and mind you,its not every single day im doing that.

ergh!

im seventeen,well soon!

i blardy know how to take care of myself.

is not like i wear open and go around wearing a banner stating im free tonight.

if you know what i mean. grrrr.

im going out on wednesday to watch a movie.

and i hope they approve of it.

if not,ergh,i dont know.(:

, 5:12 AM

got to know the class for semester two. and i thot im the only one in block E.

but eventually song hui is in block E. so i wont feel lost or whatsoever.haha.

caused i thot block E was for year twos and threes. haha.

and siti and ili are in the same class.

oh god, i dont have a friend now.

and i hope classmates will be fun(:

and this whole process i have to do it all over again. how terrible can my life in rp be?

ergh! rp suck cock.hahahaha

Monday, September 10, 2007, 4:05 PM

its really heartbreaking. i jsut chatted with haikal.

and he told me he got back from JB.

its weird that in the past he used to tell me everything.

but not now. it happened jsut suddenly.

i know i know,things change and there are reasons to it.

but please,i cant lie to myself not at this point of time,i really need a shoulder to cry on.

its funny how i miss his everything.

he used to like me,and the other way round.

well make it love for me. or maybe affection.

its funny how he used to call me every now and then in the past.

and the difference now.

i guess, humans are humans after all.

they forget where they stand after enjoying life jsut for a moment.

he changed after he got his bike.

my dear,you promised you wont.

but i guess you and i both know way better than that.

i guess i just am not strong.

i told myself i can forget you.

but i cant. eventhough you treat me like shit.

seriously,i am in need of love from girlfriends.

oh bother.

jsut forget about all it.

and i know im strong.

well at least i can pretend to be strong.(:

ok i should pretend to sleep before mom and dad gets home and see me crying.

Labels: kau buat malam ku jadi gerhana.

, 3:15 PM

i didnt know before this that if we drink,we need 40 days to be clean.

until i read ame's blog.ohgod,thanks ehy ame.

hahaha.

and just msn-ed with mai and she said its 44 days.

ohmyyyyy.

if i knew,i wouldnt do this kinda stuff before fasting month.

and i still havent complete 44 days.

i guess everything's between me and God.(:

i wont do it.i hope i wont. not when its fasting period.(:

oh god,i am so sinful right now.grrrrrrrr.

, 1:06 PM

i should stop all these bad habits at once.

i know im not doing harm to anyone,but myself.

and to hurt myself by the end of the day.

well, they say friends are always there for you.

but sometimes i dont see it that way.

girlfriends tend to spend our happy and laughing itme together.

but to think of it,not the sad and crying moments,right?

i dont know,but im feeling so shitty nowadays.

maybe theres no other reason excet for me.

and to ira, i want my ez link as soon as possible okays?

pass it to mai or smtng.

and i get it from here.

cause im starting school sooooon.(:

Sunday, September 09, 2007, 4:05 PM

i hate everything that is happening to me right at this moment.

stupid mofo, i cant seem to forget you.

i cried once more,after promising myslef i wont let emotions take control of me.

i was saving haslam's number to my hp.

and i pressed the initials H,and i saw Haikal name.

i cried immediately. grrrrr!

i cried so hard. that i told everyone i wanted to sleep. but the fct is i have no mood.

i ate those words i promised to myself.

i just chatted with him ytd afternoon,ad i told him im going out and he reminded me this,

"you,take care of urself. kat luar tuh banyak bende tak baik"

erghhhh!

why must you fcuking show me that you care?

its been months since i last received your call.

iterriblymissyouMOFO.

Labels: make this feeling go away.

Saturday, September 08, 2007, 5:41 AM

OK I FOUND THIS SOMEHOW TOUCHING VIDEO WHILE I WAS BLOGHOPPING.

AND YES IT WAS FROM FAIZ. HAHA.

ok lar,credits to him anyways.

somehow,it made me almost to tear.

awww,i really miss the good old times in changkat.

when will we ever have a gathering seys.(:

and waty you should go watch it.

caused there's some picture of you i cant stop laughing at.

ok done(:

and this one from rifdy. that bitch boy who always irritates me(:

, 5:18 AM

im freaking bored. i was supposed to wake up darn early to meet razz at his house. but that bugger he cancelled it last minute caused he said that he wanted to go out.

i told him ytd i dont want to meet caused hewants me to reach his house at 12.

and mind you, his house is so far from mine.

i was whining ytd. and yes,i gave in.

but then when i woke up at 10,he texted me.

aper lagik,i continued my beautiful sleep la.

but mum kept pestering me to wake up. she switched on the lights and off-ed the aircon.

so,i got up from the bed. and here i am.

but im meeting watek later evening.

to sara's chalet.

at least smtng to do.(:

haha. its 15 mins past 2 and i have yet to bath.

hahaha. ok enough. (:

and sorry to that friend whom i didnt kept my promise to meet you.

im so sorry. hopefully you wont get barrack detention bcause of your condition now.

he was so mad,he threw an ashtray,and it broke.

im really sorry. well, we fought the whole night.

told him i make it up to him next wk,

but he kept blaming me.

well,i should be patient caused afterall,it's my fault.(:

Friday, September 07, 2007, 1:49 PM

its so sad to see a close friend change. not to better,but the other way round.

and to see friends use you just that they can escape from pitfalls.

and to see that you dont really know how to priortize which is which,supposedly.

honestly, im tired of the changes ive seen in my friends.

the different behaviors of those kids.

im human too,you know.

and the other girls are human too,mind you.

here we are waiting and promise to be there,

there you are happily with your so called "everything"

how to put it nicely eh.

erm,i guess cannot be nice anymore lar.(:

what to do.

to say that you're stupid,actually you're not.

i think you're just attention seeker.

haha.

sucha pity.

isk isk isk,kesian.

psst,if you dont know who am i talkng about, dont anyhow say eh. (:

Thursday, September 06, 2007, 4:46 PM

i just find out that my baby is married. HOW COULD YOU?

i knew that you get that jenny pregnant last yr.

i was dissapointed then.

now knowing that you will spend the rest of your life with her and your daughter,i cant be more upset.

how can you baby?

i love you. and this is what you did to me?

well,at least im yours in spiderman.

im mrs parker.

and you're my peter parker.

at least im not Mrs Macguire.(:

ok, TOBEEEY BABEYH IS MARRIED.

guys! tell me when you want to divorce with her,im willing to be her replacement.

just for you.(:

and their babygirl's name is ruby. tk ker sweet tuh? heh. the full name is RUBY SWEETHEART MACGUIRE.

SUMPAH AKU JEALOUSSSSSSSSS! (:

, 9:06 AM

im pretty darn happy and proud of myself. semester one resultss was out today.i may not be the best student. and eventhough how much i hate rp, i still do well and manage to pass all my five pathetic modules. haha. well, i got B for al module except a C+ for science. haha.
and yes,it quite made my day.
this means a lot to me. and look at my gpa 3.10. i thought i would have much more lower and worst result. but well,i guess im wrong.(: and i still dont want school to start so fast. and yes, rp still sucks.(:

Wednesday, September 05, 2007, 4:35 PM

people say, "sorry seems to be the hardest word."

but i doubt so. nowadays people would just simply express that word after making mistakes.

and then repeat it all over again.

and say it all over again.

and the process continues. and no, its not the hardest word.well, not anymore.

just think,

how many times your mom promised you that she bring you for a holiday or vacation.

and end up saying sorry after spending how many holidays here.

and now you're still stuck in your couch still having that wish wanting to go abroad.

how many times you have firneds who stab your back,

and says sorry,

and still does the same old stupid thing.

and how many times you fight with your bf over that bitch who likes him,

and he simpl end it with sorry.

and knowing the fight will still continues even the bitch is dead?

and still, the sorry still lingers.

how many times you have a bad habit and keep repating doing it?

for example, you were never punctual.

you say sorry everytime you're late. but you never really care,do you?

and knowing that saying sorry is just way too easy.

just think.

when you;re walking,and you bump into someone.

what would you say?

sorry right?

even if you're not quite sure if it was you or the stranger.

now,tell me about it(:

Labels: sorry is never the hardest word.

, 3:42 PM

i think my love life just sucks.

and i think it has been turning its back on me since two years ago.

eversince then, ive never really understood men. and my definition of love differs.

sometimes, i really wonder where do i go wrong.

or maybe i know why.

maybe i should look in depth on how love luck has not been going well for me.

i think i should send out forwarded or what they say chain emails or messages about improving my love life.

if not i will have bad love life; which i have never done all my whole life.

i think,thats it. haha.- the babes.

see the girl in green? she wanted me to capture a nice picture of her,like sorta candid like that. haha. and shes the one i always whine to,and yes she complaint to me and vent her anger at me too. haha.but i dont mind. all the girls do that too.(:

Labels: wheres the love luck?(:

, 6:41 AM

OKAYS.

ive decided to do something that i think i should have been doing ages ago.

to finish up my jodi picoult's books. (i have two to finish reading.)

and to read up the book that mom bought for me last week.

i should be doing this.

and i will.(at least i think i will)(:

ok bye. and let me prove it to you.

and i used to love books that i can complete jodi picoult's book in like one day.

hahaha.

i love her books.(: and i should spent less time with my darling lappie.

im sorry honey. (:

, 4:10 AM

okays, im having bad bad sore throat.
and i tell you,im coughing blood,like literally.
mom told me to see our family doctor, but om too lazy to get myself ready to go out.(:
and my nose is block. and i couldnt taste whatever i eat.
but ive ate chocolates,and i still cant taste the wonders of the world.(:
anywyas, with this condition, i woke up darn early today,caused my nose was being a bitch,and i couldnt continue my beauty sleep.(:
so i watched Dead Silence,which was not scary,at all. haha.
and also Disturbia. i find DIsturbia much mroe better than Dead Silence.
haha. i tend not to be scared when watching horror movies,but in reality,im a chicken.
if you get what i mean. hahaha.
i can only hahaha online. but in reality, im expression-less. (if there ever such word)
ok,im going to try to sleep,and hoping this time round my nose wont be a bitch.(:
and i mis that one particular person. ok,am i for real?
ok,bye humans!(:(you can only be human to read this. if you're reading this,and you're not human,OK MY BLOG IS HAUNTED)
ok,i should stop my nonsense.
bye!(: