the first day of a new month. but nothing new happened, infact Ive just lost a friend.
so am I supposed to look forward for the weeks to come in November.
where Mom's bday is getting near,
where I club with the girls,
where I spend my night with Dinn,
where I laughed my ass of everyday in class?
i guess, theres so many other things for me to laugh.
its funny how that little teeny weeny thing that make me upset, will oversee all those happiness and the joyous time.
yes,its all about time, repeatedly.
it sucks to know that a friend choose something over you.
i experience that too many times, but it still hurts.
just now when I got back home, my maid asked,
" why the gloomy face? fight with your bf eh?"
then i was shocked, caused i thought noone will notice. then i just shrug and went into my room, sit on my bed, and tears fell.
what worst when Mama called and talked to me,
" Why you dont seems happy like you normally do? just broken up with bf huh? haha"
Mama was making a joke, and i only manage to smile and say I wanted to rest.
omg, i cant face her when she come abck.
she will always know when I am really down. but i dont wish to talk.
cause talking will make me cry harder.
yes, im the crying baby. i cry about almost everything.
holidays are near, but i swear i got no plans, and whatmore with the state I am in.
I didnt thought I feel so weak,and I feel just like a vicitm of a car accident cause how much I wished this pain will go away.
maybe i'll just sit at home and cry my heart out.
oh shucks,great.
one week holiday actually go down the drain.
on the brighter side, im spending more time with family.
for the mean time, dont be bother about me.
im all noisy and active outside, but im not showing really.
like jsut now, how i wished i can kill shahril, but having work to do in school, i focused and laughed like noone's business.
omg, why put me to test right now?
now when i thought I be happy.
and haikal,im in need of you. where are you bodoh? come on call me and im going to whine to you and cry to you about my problems.
i know you mind, but i dont care, you gotta listen, cause I know you love me.(:
