forgetting him is too difficult. i have never cried so hard eversince months ago. i guess he really means a lot to me. I have never imagined that I would cry so hard for him. my eyes are now swollen and so red. and i swear I look much more uglier and terrible. Oh God, now tell me what am I supposed to do. I am seriously bored, seriously need someone to talk to. But i cant help but cry too much. I need my girls. I have been playing around and going out on dates toomuch, but Haikal is way too different from those guys. I loved him. I have never felt love for so long until him. I hate falling in love, and i hate it when the one i love doesnt know I am here crying for them. I have tissues all over my bed, and all over the floor. I cant take this shit. Its too heavy for me to carry all these burden. Oh God, please let me forget this when I wake up tomorrow morning. Make me forget all these misery. I want my old self back. I dont want to keep crying and be emotional about everything that revolves around me. Its too hard and demanding for me. I want to forget Haikal fast. I dont want to let people see im weak. I am tired of all these. Maybe what Leon and Liyana said was right. No point thinking of Haikal when he doesnt even care. He doesnt even know I am thinking and crying for him. Cause he aint doing the same like what I am doing. Maybe hes not even thinking of me. And its too difficult to move on. And I cant use hatred to forget him cause it will be too difficult. I cant stand it, this pain is too much for me. I swear I have never been like this. Its hurting me too much. Noone have never saw me like this cause thi sis the worst. And especially to my girls, I swear I need you girls so much. I cant handle this. I feel like I want to end it all. Make me sleep forever can? I dont need you guys to tag me just to demoralise and tell me how EMO i am. I dont need that. Cause I dont fucking need all that. I am too sad and upset with all the things that have been happenings. I cant take all these shits that is happening. I WANT MY STRENGTH BACK.
