i had a bad dream last night. maybe due to me thinking about that idiot too much.
it was a nightmare rather than a dream. i was scared, it was so real. its been a while since I dreamt something so real.
It felt so real that the moment I woke up from that dream it made me teared. Non stop. I was sobbing, thinking about the dream.
About the reasons why he leave me, and why he didnt want to come close to me anymore. It was hurtful. And even in the dream, he doesnt seems to care. HE TOLD ME RIGHT IN MY FUCKING FACE. and in the dream i ran away from him, his brother and my gfs. cause they were there with me. i was sad. i ran with tears.
and when i woke up knowing it was a dream, it made me cry so hard that I cant breath. I dont know why. But in the dream, my gfs told me that he asked them to tell me to take good care of myself. and told my gfs to take care of me, cause he knows Im not strong.
somehow somewhat, at that point of time in the dream, i turned and searched for him and his brother, hoping he will be back. And hoping he run after me. But to no avail.
I felt so real, i was scared the moment I woke up.
But those tears made me realise it was only a dream, and knwo that he is gone,for real.
Oh God,give me the strength to move on. And lead life normally.
