no excitement anymore whenever you called. conversations becoming more shorter. no i love yous at the end of the phone call anymore. only tears rollig down my cheeks.
not because i miss, or love you too much. to realise you've changed and how you actually conveying your love for me, it hurts. but im really keen to let go of you by the ened of this year. i dont expect you to change overnight and change drastically. but boy i gave you enough chances.
it hurt me to see i got noone to tell this to. and people only want me to share happy stories and be the everyday nonsensical me. but i got my up and downs moment, you see.
i appreciate my gfs presence, but well, we usually spend more time having fun, instead of crying with each other. but im ok with it.
sometimes it sucks, people know how happy and how stupid and idiotic i am outside, and here i am blogging, you people either say im crazy or just craving for attention.
fuck, it hurts. can the world end the people demoralising others? cause the feeling aint nice.
ergh.
