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It's close to eleven and here I am cant seems to get some sleep. I dont know why. Tell me something. Why cant the heart be controlled by me? Why must it go anyhow and anytime, like someone and have these shitty feelings? I miss that someone, a whole lot. I promised myself I wont bug you. And its been months or years since we last heard from each other. But this stupid and foolish heart of mine just wont listen to my mind, which repeating says that I cant miss you, and I cant hang on to you like before. We were once, okay make it THRICE, being together. Why cant we continue our beautiful like before? Why cant your family accept I'm not yours anymore? Why cant I met you for the last time and cry in your arms? I'm not asking you come back to me, I just miss you. That's all. I wonder why must you throw away our years of memories together, and start a new and pretend we NEVER really know each other. Tell me how you deal with it, boy? Cause its been years, and you still stuck on my mind. And eventho how much I want you out of it, I cant bare to let loose of those fond memories of knowing you for five years. Enough of ranting, I guess its just too late for everything. Boy, wherever you are, I hope the wind will send my love for you just for tonight.
