my life is so fucked up. it can never be the way i expect it to be.
whyyyyyy?!!! ergh. i got so jealous over such little things, when i wasnt supposed to care, actually. not about haikal bodo please.
and now that haikal bodo is trying to be nice back to me, and make it up to me for every wrong he did, i coouldnt care less. really. i got no more feelings for him.
say what you people want to say. im fickle minded, further more, me and haikal got nothing to do with each other. tell me how am i supposed to feel secure.
urghhh, fine, whatever.
i got pissed, and i feel like crying. parents are always blaming me just becausse im the eldest. urgh! i fucking hate that.
i hate my life for now.
so much for a HAPPY new year. fuck it. fuck everything.
