a new year, i was hoping so much for something good to happen to me. Maybe i expect too much, hoping for too much. My life sucks, like seriously. Yesterday, parents were at home. And they were busily sleeping. But around 10, when i was watching television, my Dad woke up, and as usual, called up his employees. I thought he would do the usual stuffs like ask them about sales and stuffs nots. BUT NO. I guessed it was one of his employee birthday. my dad said to another employee, " Faster go buy for him a cake, before it turns midnight. Use the sales money" I was like, he didnt even bought me a cake for MY BIRTHDAYY! he wasnt that eager. ergh. I cried thinking about that. and i went to sleep crying thinking about it. Fuck everything can? I want to settle down, but I cant find anyone to settle down with. It sucks. When I find someone who is all nice and sweet, there are jsut too many obstacles for us. Argggh. OMG. im so pathetic. I just realised im so darn pathetic. (:
Written; 10.47 AM
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Holy shiat, Im getting fatter. Im going to really really lose some weight. Like seriously this time. And i really really want to go for that Cambodia Service Learning Trip. I want i want! and i really desperately need a holiday. Ive been craving for one. I want go somewhere far. Maybe i take a two day off and tell my parents i want stay overseas, and maybe force them to go to the neighbouring country with me, can? Oh brother, tell me how, if I dont even talk to the FINANCIAL ADVISOR, daddy-o? ergggh. And eventhough I didnt cried for you, I still missed you so much. and, its very much. Oh wells, and speaking of that, its his gf birthday today. I guess they are happily over there, celebrating her birthday. Oh wells, I couldnt complain much, I dont really care. And I have never celebrated a REAL valentines day, to think about it. I really really want to settle down, but guys are just the pain in the arse, who goes for girls with looks, and people like me tend to lose alot.yes, to think about it, not only the inner beauty is important, the outer too, huh? But am i THAT ugly? (:
Written; 9:57 PM
a new year, i was hoping so much for something good to happen to me. Maybe i expect too much, hoping for too much. My life sucks, like seriously. Yesterday, parents were at home. And they were busily sleeping. But around 10, when i was watching television, my Dad woke up, and as usual, called up his employees. I thought he would do the usual stuffs like ask them about sales and stuffs nots. BUT NO. I guessed it was one of his employee birthday. my dad said to another employee, " Faster go buy for him a cake, before it turns midnight. Use the sales money" I was like, he didnt even bought me a cake for MY BIRTHDAYY! he wasnt that eager. ergh. I cried thinking about that. and i went to sleep crying thinking about it. Fuck everything can? I want to settle down, but I cant find anyone to settle down with. It sucks. When I find someone who is all nice and sweet, there are jsut too many obstacles for us. Argggh. OMG. im so pathetic. I just realised im so darn pathetic. (: