Tomorrow is the health check at TTSH. Die die die! I will get vaccinations. Im scared of needles/bloods and anything to do with those health thingy. Hahaa. I have to be brave man. Im really really scared, yknow. Haha. Badan jer besar, tapi dgn jarum pon takot! HAHAHA.I got nothing to blog for now, really. My relationship with Dad is back to normal. Yay! Means, more pocket moey, cause Daddy is not stingy like Mama! Haha! I want to have my retail therapy with parents soon, man! I got more things on my wishlists. And whats more, going to Cambodia, I want/need to buy many many things. Haha, actually, its just an excuse laa. hahaa. I just want them to follow me to go shopping, cause they will fork out the money. Best apeeeee. =)
keluhan hatiku tak siapa yg tahu. ku simpan semua sebak didada
[edited @ 12:05 am, 19.02.2007]
And now, it striked me, that every guy I met/dated/know/get close with is attached. Those who used to say they have feelings, and say they will wait for me. Obviously, I did not fall for that. Or maybe I was just too choosy? I dont know. T o think of it, some people do want me, but my heart cant seems to open up when there's someone who wants to reach my heart. Reason being is that, I still have the thoughts of all guys are the same. Therefore, resulting me to igore all of them. I know eventhough they are attached right now, they wont last. And IF I was in that girl position, I think I be the dumbest. Maybe they are too weak, fall for their sweet talking words fast enough. And I wonder, how guys actually feel when they do all these. Ive known a few of them who already attached, still wants to get to know girls behind their girlfriends. It heartbreaking, but, I htink life is just too cruel. I cant imagine how these guys actually felt. Is their love too cheap? People say move on, but it seems like they move on pretty fast, aye? To be truth, Im sick of the word love. It revolves around me too much. How much I want to run away from it, it just coming back to me. It hurts, really. I dont know how many times I felt that I wanted a boyfriend so much, I miss being loved, really. Really, really. I think love is a major thing in this world. I dont know how much I kept ranting about this. I just dont now where to rant it all out and crymy heart out. Yes, even typing all these, making me realised how much Ive been missing of those lovey dovey times. While others are clinging on to their loved ones, Im stuck here, blogging like a loner. Argh, shucks! I should stop letting my emotions all out here. I should get some sleep before my parents come back and ask questions. Sumpah, aku rindu Fahmi. =(
Tomorrow is the health check at TTSH. Die die die! I will get vaccinations. Im scared of needles/bloods and anything to do with those health thingy. Hahaa. I have to be brave man. Im really really scared, yknow. Haha. Badan jer besar, tapi dgn jarum pon takot! HAHAHA.