It's saddening when everyone around you judge you by your looks. Come on, I didnt ask to be born with so many flaws and imperfection. But why must the world be cruel to people. Fuck it with first impression counts. But all that matters in the end is the inner side. I have always been conscious with my every move. Im a big girl, I know. But Im just like any other girl, I have feelings, and I want to be treated right. Walking down the roadside, cant help but trying to make myself look small and not to make a fool out of myself. It's hard, difficult. And to see those lovebirds holding hands. What can I do? Just to imagine, and fantasize. Nothing much huh. Just because other girls who are just how many inches smaller than me, they get everything. Eventhough how ugly their look is, other than that, eventhough how horrendous their attitude is, people still overlook their obvious flaws.
And how the pretty girls only talk to their standard kind. And to pin down ugly girls. Sometimes, human nature is just very amusing.
I was never born pretty or have everything in this world. But I slowly see and learnt from experience. That is where I am now. I may never be better than some of you, but definitely I have a better heart. And I wont let you step on my head just like that. You may hate me, just because, you cant win. Its funny how people dislike me for just how I look at them. You know who you are.
Till then sweethearts. =)