Wednesday, August 27, 2008, 11:40 PM
Sometimes, how I wished I can stop the time from ticking away.The day from changing to night.The days,months and years change everytime I wake up, knowing Im still feeling this pain.To have all the time in this world to just do everything that reminds me of the dreadful past.It's much more than you know that is affecting my life. Always seeing things around me to be much more better. And that even when Im gone, I bet people will even take notice.Sometimes, I just wish I am a pious Muslim, and how I wished I die peacefully faster.I now understand living in this world is sucha tiring thing to do. To please not myself actually, but the people around.Am I really happy? Maybe for a moment, yes. But I just want the world to look at me and say good stuffs about me.I never asked for much actually. Just to be happy. To be loved by the people around.They say nice and sweet things, but they are just for short term. After all that, they be gone. Like we are just strangers. Not even friends. Life is cruel, no doubt.Tried to be good, but people take good people and good things for granted.Tried to be bad, but Im just disappointing my loved ones.They say just be you. But what is you?Sometimes when I am me, people dislike, they say I need to change.And sometimes, when I change, they say I should be me.Ive gone through quite alot within this seventeen years life of mine.Those I loved,lust,wanted, needed and yearn.I can only hope for the best now.I never asked for much, but just to be happy.But wait,what makes me happy, really?ps; i still cry listening to the songs you sang to me once. I realised Im still missing you.
