you and i.

Wednesday, October 29, 2008, 11:29 PM

I know, its been so long since Ive updated. Its either too busy with school (which I dont think so), work, friends and family. I let the pictures do the talking, as usuals. I blog again tonight or some other day. Cause I be free most of the time this week, I guess. Cheers, people!

Some things are meant to be kept secret or to be told. For us, we glad we tell it to each other. To end it all. Yes, truth hurts. But its better now than never. You know I love you. And friends worth much more than any guys. Hopefully it is.

And the other day the working mates send Iwan to airport cause he's flying off to Indonesia.

Drinking session with the girls the other day. From Balcony to Chips. I saw Fariz over there. I swear I was staring at him and he look goddamn hot! With his thin lips. Haha. Too bad, hes gay!

I was abit high, but I guess everything's ok. Just that my laptop dropped when I alighted from the cab. Haha. And yes, my lappy now look ugly already. So sad. I was actually calling different friends on my phonebook. I even talked to someone I promised not to talk to. I talked crap and utter rubbish. But heck, I wasnt at the right state of my mind that night.

Alot of things have been happening over here, be it with family, with friends and guy friends. But I realised one thing, how much I am sad or dissapointed about one thing, I can always pick myself up once again. And be the irritating one as before. Haha!

Cheers poeple!

Tuesday, October 21, 2008, 2:49 PM

tak pernah terpikir oleh
ku tak sedikit pun kubayangkan
kau akan pergi tingalkan ku sendiri

begitu sulit kubayangkan
begitu sakit kurasakan
kau akan pergi tingalkanku sendiri

dibawah batu nisan kini
kau tlah sandarkan kasih sayang kamu ……
begitu dalam sungguh ku tak sanggup ini terjadi
karna ku sangat cinta

inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
hanya mampu ucapkan selamat jalan kasih

satu jam saja kutelah bisa cintai kamu,kamu,kamu
dihatiku namun bagiku melupakanmu
butuh waktuku seumur hidup

And everytime this songs plays, I will cry. Why is it that you have to leave at these very moment. Come back soon. Twelve days is not short. I told you I wait. And now realise how much you loved me when want to leave. Eventhough my feelings for you arent there yet. I appreciate you being honest. Yes, you love me. I always give you a hard time, but you always be right here by my side, how much I hurled vulgarities at your face, pinch you and beat you up. I never onced told you I like you, but only say I hate you, and you're a motherfucker that do nothing but trouble my life. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. And I find myself tear up reading your text message this morning. I be here waiting for you to come back,friend.

, 1:11 PM

Monday, October 20, 2008, 11:25 AM

Things havnt been always the bright side. In a short period of time, many things happened. Both of us were to be blame. Im very fickle minded, even when it comes to loving someone. One moment I may say I love you, the other, I may look at drool at other boys.

That's beside the point. Now that things doesnt go well between us, but I always did the part of apologising first. No doubt, I used to like you very much. Ive spend alot on you. Dinner, movies and dates. Ive never been asking alot from you. But I guess its totally the end for us. I treated you well, but I guess you were really blinded by all that. I miss you, I do. But I guess there's much things in life to think of than this.

Update later with pictures and all.

Thursday, October 16, 2008, 8:57 AM

Over the last weekend, I went out with the girls for Raya outing. It was an impromptu plan actually. We only go to each other houses, cause we lazy to go out and visit houses. We even thought of going to karaoke. But ditched that idea, instead lepak till late over at Aisyah's house.

Many more pictures of us seeking forgiveness from each other. Yea, its like a daily routine every Raya for us to do that. It was hilarious, instead of sad. Hahaha!

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The other day I went out with you after you ended your school. It such an impromtu plan too. I decided to watch movie and have our dinner together. So we met over at Town, and went to Cineilesiure to buy our movie tickets. Since I was the one who asked you out, I treated you to movie and dinner. However, things went abit out of hand. I was sulking, and I was the one giving you the cold shoulder. Yes, we literally walk far away from each other. I went alone to buy the tickets, and then rushed down to smoke. All the way not talking to you. Even when we enter the cinema, and i pull a tug on your shirt, and then you turn to me and gave a peck on my cheek and held my hands saying you're sorry.

We caught Big Stan. The movie was hilarious. And I laughed most of the time, even you look at me and said IM crazy. Haha. After movies, we headed to Far East and then to Sakura for dinner. My food came inlate, and our dinner wasnt satisfactoryly taste. But it filled our empty stomach, so it was okay. Went for smoke, and then walked around Town for awhile. And then headed to Fort Canning Park to sit and talk.

When I asked you," Is what we have love or its just some other things?" You replied " I like you very much. Its too early tosay it love, you know."

True, how much that answer isnt satisfactory. And I asked you again, " Who am I to you?" When you said, " You're someone very special in my heart. I like everything about you."
That made me smile all the way. We were actually talking only over at Fort Canning Park, but theres this peeping tom was actually looking at us, thought we were hanky packy or something. We laughed, at him. Cause it was rather funny adn stupid of him. However I was feeling uneasy after a while, cause the body of the peeping tom still was in the same position, and staring at us. So we make a move, and headed home.

Everything went well, except for the argument we had. I know I was at fault. You even told me you were scared if we were to fight again. This is the second time we fought. Cause you said, we both have egos. And he told me my ego was veryyy huge for a girl. Hahahah!

And little brother got infected with Hand Food Mouth Disease. So, Mama will be staying home for the whole week I guess. Ive made plans already for this whole week, btu I just gotta dismiss some, cause of her. And she found out I smoked. Thanks. I think its another silent treatment in the house. Haissss. Im tired of all that, really.